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omg...lukas today was fun...except i hate myself...i just had to not tell anyone that i liked matt and now everyones gonna hate me. i hate myself and i deserve to die for what im doing to kathryn (racquet). then kaylee is being a total bitch. i called sarah (gretch) and andrea (cheese) and cried...i dont think andrea could tell but sarah could, she knows me too well. anyway, i feel like everything is happining so fast and i hate it! and even though everyone says matt likes me, i dont think he does. he only likes my legs and my skanky-ass self. i hate myself. anyway, sarah made me feel tons better by talking to me...she can allways calm me down and make me feel better...i love her. heres our online convo:
IteyMagicGavvie: i HATE kk
Donnie x Dark0: gawwwd
Donnie x Dark0: whats going on?
IteyMagicGavvie: shes like crying for no reason
IteyMagicGavvie: and EVERYTHINGS HAPPINING TO FAST
IteyMagicGavvie: ahhhhhhh
Donnie x Dark0: dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmiT
IteyMagicGavvie: i hate this whole...lets hate chelsea cause she makes everything wrong club
IteyMagicGavvie: seriouly
Donnie x Dark0: YOU DONT MAKE EVERYTHING WRONG
Donnie x Dark0: IF ANYTHING YOU MAKE THINGS BETTER
IteyMagicGavvie: yes i do
Donnie x Dark0: Chelsea
Donnie x Dark0: no you dont
IteyMagicGavvie: yess
IteyMagicGavvie: i shouldnt have even come over
Donnie x Dark0: Chelseaaaaaaaaa
Donnie x Dark0: don say that
Donnie x Dark0: hindsight is 20 20
Donnie x Dark0: thats in the pastish now
IteyMagicGavvie: and kaylee hates me for just being myself and kathryns gonna hate me
Donnie x Dark0: Kathryn isnt gonna hate you, if you explain urself first
IteyMagicGavvie: and i hate myself for acting like a skank
Donnie x Dark0: you want me to be there when u tell Kahtyrn?
Donnie x Dark0: YOU DIDNT
IteyMagicGavvie: yes i did
Donnie x Dark0: WANNA SEE WHAT CHRIS SAID TO THAT?
Donnie x Dark0: StickyFingers086: what???
StickyFingers086: well if thats skanky then my school is like a strip club
IteyMagicGavvie: ok
Donnie x Dark0: lol
Donnie x Dark0: StickyFingers086: well, i dont know what "kk" thinks is skanky lol
StickyFingers086: does she go to school?
IteyMagicGavvie: arrg
Donnie x Dark0: seeeeeeeeee
IteyMagicGavvie: i hate me
Donnie x Dark0: WERE NOT SKANKY
Donnie x Dark0: ooooh, sexy writing
Donnie x Dark0: I DONT HATE YOU
IteyMagicGavvie: lol
Donnie x Dark0: CAUSE UR MY BEST FRIEND
Donnie x Dark0: AND UR THE BEST
Donnie x Dark0: AND I LOVE YOU
Donnie x Dark0: CAUSE UR CHELSEA
Donnie x Dark0: :-D
IteyMagicGavvie: yeah but i messed everything up
Donnie x Dark0: Chelsea
Donnie x Dark0: IF LIKING SOMEONE WHO LIKES YOU IS A CRIME
Donnie x Dark0: SEND ME TO JAIL
Donnie x Dark0: CAUSE YOU DESERVE MATT MORE THAN ANYONE I KNOW
Donnie x Dark0: hes a good guy
IteyMagicGavvie: i messed up kathryn, kk now hates me, everything is going to fast, and its all my fault
Donnie x Dark0: no its not ur fault
IteyMagicGavvie: yes it is
IteyMagicGavvie: why did i even have to start likeing them
Donnie x Dark0: Its not your fault
IteyMagicGavvie: **him
Donnie x Dark0: ....you see
Donnie x Dark0: at this trivial age in a young girls life
Donnie x Dark0: she gets very hormonal
Donnie x Dark0: and HORNY
IteyMagicGavvie: not mee
Donnie x Dark0: SO SCREW MATT AND BE JOLLY
Donnie x Dark0: lol
Donnie x Dark0: but on a serious note
Donnie x Dark0: I LOVE U
Donnie x Dark0: AND U DID NOT MESS ANYTHING UP
IteyMagicGavvie: yes i did
IteyMagicGavvie: i make everything wrong
Donnie x Dark0: OKAY
IteyMagicGavvie: i made kathryn cry
IteyMagicGavvie: kk cry
Donnie x Dark0: THIS IS WHATS GONNA GO DOWN
IteyMagicGavvie: my self cry
Donnie x Dark0: ME U AND KATHRYN ARE GONNA HAVE A TALK
Donnie x Dark0: AND WERE GONNA BE SERIOUS
IteyMagicGavvie: and andrea
Donnie x Dark0: AND WERE GONNA TELL HER EVERTHING
IteyMagicGavvie: we need andrea
Donnie x Dark0: YEAH YEAH
Donnie x Dark0: AND ANDREA
IteyMagicGavvie: ok
Donnie x Dark0: AND WERE GONNA TeLL HER EVERYTHING
Donnie x Dark0: and try to work something out
IteyMagicGavvie: but what about kk??
Donnie x Dark0: so eveyones happy
Donnie x Dark0: nah, we can have a seperate conferance wit her
Donnie x Dark0: lol
IteyMagicGavvie: and what about this going so fast?
Donnie x Dark0: you have control over it
Donnie x Dark0: slow it down
Donnie x Dark0: :-)
IteyMagicGavvie: i cant...i just come in the chat and everyone ims me at once and is like....your gonna have a boyfriend
IteyMagicGavvie: and seriouly
IteyMagicGavvie: ive only met matt like 3 times
IteyMagicGavvie: or 4
Donnie x Dark0: oaky okay okay
IteyMagicGavvie: but....do you get what im saying??
Donnie x Dark0: then ignore everyone whos like, "ur gonna have a bf"
Donnie x Dark0: and tell matt
Donnie x Dark0: that u like him, and you want to think about going out with him, but everything is moving so fast, and you want to spend more time with him before making any desisions
IteyMagicGavvie: but...what if matt dosent even like me...and he just likes me cause im a "skank with nice legs"
Donnie x Dark0: I get what ur saying completely
Donnie x Dark0: NO
IteyMagicGavvie: what if hes not even gonna ask me out
Donnie x Dark0: Chelsea, your lketting everything get to ur head
Donnie x Dark0: then unless you ask him out, youll never go out
Donnie x Dark0: and thats the gospel truth
IteyMagicGavvie: nooo...i dont ask people out
IteyMagicGavvie: they ask me
Donnie x Dark0: well
Donnie x Dark0: then if he never asks u out
Donnie x Dark0: then ull never be together...obviously
Donnie x Dark0: but I get the thought that he will
IteyMagicGavvie: no...cause he dosent like me
IteyMagicGavvie: he like my skanky self and my legs
Donnie x Dark0: no chelsea
Donnie x Dark0: he likes u, Im thinking
Donnie x Dark0: I dont know for a 100% fact
Donnie x Dark0: more like... 98.3726%
Donnie x Dark0: lol
IteyMagicGavvie: so...we dont even know if he likes me....what if he just likes me because everyone is forcing him too...
IteyMagicGavvie: then
IteyMagicGavvie: arrrggg im sooo confused
Donnie x Dark0: errg
Donnie x Dark0: Chelly Belly
Donnie x Dark0: I have to go night night
Donnie x Dark0: I LOVE U MY BEST BUDDY
Donnie x Dark0: CHECK OUT MY AWAY MESSAGE
IteyMagicGavvie: okie
IteyMagicGavvie: i love you tooo
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Auto response from Donnie x Dark0: attn everyone: I have met the perfect guy:-D
I love you 'Ponine. Im so sorry that you feel so bad. Your my best friend, and I want you to be happy. And Racquet, I want you to be happy too. I really do. I want Chewy to be happy also. We really need to work out somthing so that everyones happy.
'Ponine....you are my bestest friend, and dont let this beat you up. You deserve everything thats been handed to you, you know what I mean, the good stuff. I dont think for one second that you deserve any of the bad stuff that has come with it. Stop worrying about it, Auntie Gretch (the hooker, lol) will make everything okay:-D
and thats the gospel truthO:-)
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IteyMagicGavvie: sarah...i love you...your my best friend!! and i feel like crying because of this away message...your the bestest:-)thanks for being so understanding...
yeah...and heres my away message right now:
i love gretch...shes my bestest friend and shes so understanding. its amazing how she can allways make me feel better...thank you whoever is the god of friends for giving me such a great friend.
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